Body image and TV

One of the things I find interesting is that I am drawn to shows on TV that involve models or attractive, athletic (skinny) women.  I do want to be able to do things physically that are not an option right now.  I loved dancing, and I think it would be fun to do gymnastics.  I would love to get into martial arts of some kind.  My absolutely insane interest is in Parkour.  I came across that a while ago, and absolutely love it.  There is no way I can do those kinds of things right now.

Almost every show about this type of women is a group thing:  it is a group of the same type of women, either working together as a team or competing with each other.  Often, the type of women drawn to these types of things are much more effeminate than I consider myself.  I really think if I were forced into such a situation of having to co-habitate with a large group of women like that, I would go insane.  Especially the bubbly 'cheerleader' type of personality.  That is so NOT me.

I did pretty good today on maintaining my exercise.  I tried a ten minute cardio workout that I found online, and that was challenging and pretty fun.  I have a set of exercises I have been doing over the past couple of weeks, that mainly focuses on my waist and some work with a five-pound weight for my arms.  I probably need a bigger weight, but I found this one cheap, and figured it was better than nothing until I get something better.

I am thinking about breaking out my rollerblades and using them to get more active.  I haven't used them in probably close to 9 years or so.  I think it would be good, not only because it would be something fun to do, but also it would be good to help improve my balance.  I am not so bad with balance, but there are moments where I don't feel as firm as I would like.  I don't know if it is a vision thing (since I do wear glasses), and I definitely notice that sometimes things appear to be moving at different speeds around me.  In some ways, I am better with my eyes closed or in the dark, then I am relying more on my inner sense of balance and not visual clues.

We had chili for dinner tonight.  While not the most diet oriented food, I definitely feel I can achieve what I want without going to a traditional diet.  I do try to incorporate fruits and vegetables and restrict things like fat and excess sugar.  What I struggle most with is portion size.  I often over-eat, especially at dinner time.  I have definitely found that if I don't eat breakfast within a couple of hours from waking, that it affects my metabolism.  Oddly enough, eating breakfast makes me more hungry during the day.  But I do my best to eat small, healthy snacks.  I am trying to make use of some snacks my parents have sent me that are geared towards use in a weight-loss program.  They are low calorie, and have healthy protein in them.